Wednesday, March 03, 2004


I was listening to Howard Stern this morning on my way to the gym. I don't normally, but since I've begun to get up at 4:15 he's really the only morning show on, and I don't mind it. Of course lately, when I listen it's been less about boobs and sex and more about him being cut off by clear channel. He has some very interesting things to say, and this morning read a portion of an article from US News, (I am picking up the issue tonight and will scan it if you'd like to take a gander at it.) that outlines how Clear Channel has basically been in Bush's back pocket, and how last year, Stern was on a list of Bush defenders, and 4 days after he says that he thinks Bush should not be re-elected, that he has a definite religious agenda, and that Bush's character is questionable, he's taken off the air. The article points out that Clear Channel straight up says it's because a caller used the 'n' word, and because Stern asked Rick Solomon a crude question (no cruder than anything I've ever heard on that show). The article points out that this is the same company that hired some idiot from MSNBC who was fired for calling a caller a sodomite who should get AIDS and die while on the air. Hmmm... interesting, no? I am eager to read the whole article, and I have to say I agree with a lot of what Stern is saying. He said this morning that Bush says marriage is for 'the family' it's wrong to allow homosexuals to marry, because they can't procreate. Stern pointed out why then, are people over childbearing age and infertile people allowed to marry? What about couples who choose not to have children? It's a good point. One I'm sure that is lost on them (the close minded lawmakers) but still, a good point. I totally agree with Stern about the religious agenda, especially in terms of stem cell research and gay marriage. Who the hell died and made him God? (heh, that sentence kind of makes me laugh...) As far as the censorship goes, What the fuck ever happened to freedom of speech? I understand that a lot of Stern's show (as well as many other 'shock jock' shows)is crude and inappropriate. HOWEVER, when I hear something I don't like I turn it off. All this crap about "What about the children, it shouldn't be aired around children." Um, how about step the fuck up and do your job as a parent.

As a kid there were rules in my house, I was NOT allowed to listen to madonna my entire childhood because my parents deemed her inappropriate. As a teenager I was absolutely not allowed to have any rap in the house (I eventually broke this rule, but by that time I was 17... not a child.) They didn't spend every waking hour screening our music and television, they put out limits and followed up on them when we stepped out of line. This is not difficult people. That's what I don't get, you've got all these nimrods out there saying that we need to be more responsible about what gets put on the airwaves etc, no. We don't. You do. You're the parent, don't be so fucking lazy and expect other people to make decisions about what's best for your child.

This is scary shit people, we went over to the middle east in the beginning to help free oppressed people. I'm not saying that Bush is taking us to place where life will be comparable to life under the Taliban, but you know what, I live in America, where I'm supposed to be 'free'... I don't want any suits in Washington making decisions over what I can and cannot watch or listen to. Nor do I want them telling me who I can or cannot marry... stay the fuck out of the bedroom, and stay the fuck out of my tv... I mean, don't they have bigger fish to fry?


Ok, now that that's out of my system. Man, I am getting sore. I did some muscle work yesterday and today I was on the treadmill for about 45 minutes, walking for 3 minutes and running for 2. I like this kind of sore, the kind where I can still function, and not get tears in my eyes from sitting down and then standing up. I've been working out for about... 2 years? There was a form of consistency there for a while, primarily during the months when I shed most of my weight. Since I hit about 175 last spring/winter, I haven't been nearly as dedicated to exercise. It used to rule my life... in a good way I guess. Then last summer I was able to get down to 167lbs, a total loss of 97lbs or so (I say or so because I may have weighed more than 265 at some point... not sure.) anyway, I gained about 11lbs since then... really it had to do with the fudge fest of 2003. I am so not making goodies this year when I obviously have a hard time saying 'no more'. Anyhoo, so I started back working out and anyone who's ever tried to lose weight knows that sometimes it can seem like an insurmountable (unsurmountable?) challenge. I still have it in my head that I should see pounds dropping off daily, as that's how it went when I first dropped the 97lbs. I know that I don't need to lose as much this time around, hell, I am only really hoping to get down to 150lbs. But sometimes I don't know if I'll ever make it. It can be so depressing.

Then there are days like today, when I step on the scale and see a loss over the last week of 1lb. 1lb and I feel like I can do anything again. It's amazing the power the scale has isn't it? I'm just happy that I'm feeling positive about losing weight again, I know in my heart I just have to keep at it, I know it's possible, it's just going to take a lot of work, and that this time I'm also eating A LOT healthier, so it's not going to come off like nothing. My body has grown comfortable in this size and I have to shake things up to get it going again. But man, even a measly loss of 1lb is enough to get that excitement and determination up to full force... I am already looking forward to tomorrow's work out. God, I NEVER thought those words would leave my mouth. :-)

I told you the haircut was bad. Hmmm, I think this picture makes it a lot worse than it actually is too. We will probably touch him up this weekend. heh, poor little guy.

The cake I made for Wili's Birthday last week. I didn't have one bite of it, but damn did I want to. I made him take it home with him, as I couldn't look at it every day and pine for it.

Ben will lay in the bed like this, completely fucking unaware that it is teetering off the shelf like that. On more than one occasion he has fallen off the shelf, landed in the food dish and looked very perturbed about the whole thing.


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