HELP A SISTER OUT
can you go here and cast a vote for colors for the wedding? I know this should be in the wedding diary... big woo. I need help. Thanks!
In other news, let's see... after my day long melt down (read: choking back tears ALLFUCKINGDAYLONG.) I went home and crashed. I lay down and slept from about 5pm until after 8. Apparently I was tired. When I went back to bed around 10 I had a hell of a time falling back asleep even though I was tired. Last time I remember looking at the clock was around midnight. But I do feel better today for what it's worth. I think it was just the finality of everything that hit home yesterday. It was final three years ago, but now... it's seriously final... she's not coming back. It's a tough pill to swallow to say the least.
I am comforted by a 'dream' my mom had a few weeks or so after Grandma passed away. I am writing it from my memory, so hopefully I remember it correctly. She and Lori were on their way out to see Grandpa, and as they were driving mom fell asleep. (this is not uncommon :-) at all.) Anyway, in her dream it was really really bright. So bright she had a hard time even realizing she was in their neighborhood, but she knew she was. She said there were people lining the street on either side of the car, but they were blurry, and she could only make out their shapes. As she looked down the row of people my grandma leaned out and waved. She knew it was grandma because she wasn't blurry, just everyone else was. She smiled and waved and I think that's when mom woke up. Believe what you want about heaven or an afterlife or whatever. But for us, it was completely reassuring that she was ok.
Be sure to check out the aforementioned wedding diary for the dress pics I've been promising. Except for you AARON! These were taken with a camera phone on the sly, so they are not the best quality, but at least you get an idea.
Aaron's sister Brandi is coming to stay with us tonight. We're not sure for how long, but she's welcome to stay for as long as she needs to. I'm admittedly a bit nervous about the arrangement, only because we have never had a houseguest for longer than a night and it is a damn tiny apartment. I hope we aren't too noisy in the mornings, and I hope the cats don't bother her at night. I think it'll be just fine though, and the cats will be thrilled at having company during the day. :-) You'd think we ignored the bastards the way they carry on sometimes.
no pics today. sorry, I'll try and get some uploaded sometime this century.