Tuesday, September 30, 2003


Man, I was in bed and asleep by 10:30 last night. I feel great today; still a teensy bit tired, but you know what; I woke up happy and ready to face the day so that's all that matters. It's all I can do to concentrate on homework and the like without my mind drifting over to bridal stuff. It's so hard! I have so much to do this week in terms of school work; I keep telling myself to calm down but man... I'm just thinking all the time about the wedding. You would think it was next week the way I've dived into the planning :-)

I went to the gym last night. I haven't been in about 2 weeks or maybe even a little more; since I came down with the cold from hell. In fact I still have it; it's just 95% better. Anyway, I was convinced I'd gained weight but oddly wasn't freaking out about it. Turns out I lost two pounds, and I have even been eating healthy; yet well rounded meals. Not depriving myself of anything. Hot damn, maybe eating that way and working out will help me lose some more inches. I would love to be under 150lbs on my wedding day; but even if I just end up losing a few inches, and get in better shape I think I'll be ok. I just want to be happy, and I am right now. I don't want to start my weight freak outs and ruin it.

You ever read the blogs of other people who tend to irritate you? There are probably 3 or 4 journals/blogs I read, and the women who write them totally piss me off. I won't say who they are, because some of them are well known in the journaling community... I don't even know why I read them... one is so freakin hoity toity about her life; everything is so fucking joyous and blessed... gah. It just irritates me. Another is so damn in over her head with her new baby she is kind of obnoxious about her own parenting style. I have to remind myself that I write about what I want to write about on this site; and it's the same for her. When it gets to be too much for me I just x out of the browser. The one who really bugs the shit out of me though is this lesbian chick... I don't even know why she bothers me but she does. yet I won't delete any of these saps from my favorites list. Who's the freak me or them? Most journals I enjoy, I will leave a comment every now and then; but if I hate a journal the author will never know I've been there, lurking... heh, despising every word. Anyway...

He's part alien I say...


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